Accepting our limitations
by, 06-27-2014 at 03:45 AM (9487 Views)
I've tried, I did well while both were in reasonably good health. But now with Mother's fall resulting in a broken elbow; I find that I must accept my limitations. I can not physically care for her. I have irrated my shoulder, pulled a muscle in my back that can not heal while I continue to lift her when she slips, catch her when she starts to fall. She will not listen to me because I'm the daughter. I thought I could do this as last year went so well. But this year has been terrible 2 stays in the hospital, one out-patient surgery for mother. Then there's always the possible of Daddy's heart attack.
Today I am going to admitted my limitations and say it's assisted living or hiring several aides to cover the hours. Mother needs constant watching, she refuses to listen to my father and myself. She has to go her own way. Nothing I cook pleases them. I hurt so badly I can't sleep. I just want to cry, I want to go home and have someone care for me I so can heal.
My Lyrica dosage is too low, but a higher dosage will make me loopy, so I can't take a higher one right now. It hurts every night when I open the hide-a-bed I have to sleep on. I'm stressing again, trying to push through everything like I did when I was working. I know that this brings on flares, I can't flare and take care if two elderly people.
I think it's time to surrender. I've lost the strength to continue the fight. The pain is becoming to overwhelming. I can not be positive anymore.