So tired of being tired

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Yea its the same old worn out saying among people with lupus, but I just wish I wasn't so tired all the time. I want my life back!! I was 13 when diagnosed so 7 years later at 20 i'm stuck in a limbo of sorts because i'm not feeling well but i'm not in a relapse. Even though I have complained my doctor just keeps writing it off as me being crazy. It's been over a year since I had to drop out of college because I just got too sick too keep up, I miss it and I don't know what to do anymore when the normal lab work isn't showing anything abnormal. I have finally accepted the no sun thing and limited stamina but give me a break I can't even fold laundry without getting exhausted. I didn't get to have my teen years because of lupus, and it's so frustrating that I can't even be a semi-normal 20 year old and no answers to even attempt to my exhaustion. I want to go back to school and graduate, I don't want to be isolated anymore and have friends again, I want to have a first love and all that, I want to go out with the few friends I have left, just want to live again.
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