sick and tired of being Sick & Tired!
by, 10-27-2009 at 01:47 AM (844 Views)
I am so exhausted, but yet I can't sleep. What's up with that? I am so tired and so sore all the time. It SUCKS THE BIG ONE! It's really hard to think positive when I feel like this nearly every day lately. I want to feel NORMAL, I want to be able to do the things I want to do. I want to be able to GET OUT OF BED! I am really frustrated and depression is kicking my butt! I just want to have more good days then bad days. It just doesn't seem like that happens much anymore. I have absolutley no energy 99% of the time. My joints ache all the time. I feel like death warmed over. I really don't want to feel like this! I have been getting odd new symptoms popping up all the time, which is really frustrating. I just get used to a new symptom and then yet another comes along to deal with. When will there be an END or at least a slowing? I HATE feeling like this!!!!
How am I supposed to live my life, from bed! When I try to get up, it's excruciatingly painful and exhausting. Just to go to bathroom is a chore! It's all I can do right now to get on the computer for a while. It's again after 1 am and again I am not yet sleeping. I didn't wake up till 5 pm yesterday so I probably won't sleep for a few more hours! Tired but can't sleep! WHY? why? WHY? I just want to sleep on a normal human schedule. 10 pm to 8 or 9 am, is that to much to ask? I don't think so! but apparently it is! I really want to go to sleep and I am going to go back and lay down and try again! Just had to rant and rave to myself!