Beckey Lapp

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I am not to sure what I'm doing on this website so I will just wing it. I was so sick two days ago and was so scared . I started feeling better, at least out of bed, only lots of rests. Today I started getting really bad bad chest pains and now I'm all freaked out again. Does anyone know how to stop from being panicked? I just wish I knew how to handle all of this. The doctors don't even know totally what's wrong with me. I just don't have anyone to really talk to, my family just gets scared and frustrated with me. I love my husband so muchI don't know what I would do without him! He is such a big help. After working all day long he comes home and makes dinner for us. It makes me so mad that I can't do it for him, he works so hard. He says not to worry he can handle it and he does, I guess I just need to learn to deal with my own guilt about all of this.
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  1. lucky7's Avatar
    AWWW, Hi Beckey! Sorry you're having to deal with this. I is difficult and i understand you feel guilt. Just remember though, it isnt your fault and just like other changes in life, its something to adjust too thats all. The power of the mind is AMAZING, so when you're having those "panicked moments" or those "guilty moments" you NEED to tell YOURSELF "i will control whats in my power to control, and whats not in my control i will learn to deal with it". I know its hard some days more than others but please remember your wonderful husband is THERE FOR YOU and WE are HERE FOR YOU as well. A support system is a GREAT thing to have throughthis. Educate yourself more about your illness and know that others are going through it too and we understand it as well. Adjustments will ahve to be made but as time passes it will get better. Gentle hugs to youXXXXXXXX
  2. Angel Oliver's Avatar
    Hi Beckey,

    Dont feel guilty its understandable why you are as we all have at some point.Its hard not to be able to do what we used to do...but remember you are sick.In time once they find out what is actually wrong with you....meds will help you. I too was diagnosed with Lupus then they said its not and now say i have M.E.I am not convinced and am still fighting for them to listen to they can do further tests so i feel at ease and know for sure.
    Now, your panics.Its so understanderable why you panic, being so unsure of whats happening to you. The only thing you can do is relaxation,which is so difficult when you are so distressed,but it can work. Breathing is the first thing.This will help.Take a deep breath in through your nose and hold it for 5 seconds.Then breath out through your mouth for 5 seconds.Do this for 5 full minutes.You feel its not working....but its actually slowing your heart rate down without you knowing it.You will feel a bit easier after.This is why you get chest pains. Id also advise you to just let your doctor know...get a check up.
    If you look on Louris Lounge...add a thread there too...letting people know this situation....about you.More people will reply then you see as not many people look in the blog section.
    You keep strong and i hope you get a diagnosis very soon.We are all here to help you until you do.We understand how scary it all is and will help you. Message me or Jeanette(Lucky7) anytime. Sending you gentle hugs.Oh and what a fab husband you have.Listen to him,let him help.In time you will get meds to help you and you can cook him a meal.Just you rest until then my friend.lots of love..Angel.xxxxxx
    Updated 05-09-2009 at 12:54 PM by Angel Oliver