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Rastagirl
05-28-2009, 07:25 AM
Hey Everyone.....

Been awhile...okay just a few days. I've been missing in action cuz my life went crazy for awhile.

I had an insane weekend with nothing but problems at the race is Seattle....everything from my truck breaking down to no hot water in the hotel when I needed my 6 am shower....that one is never good for your sore joints and muscles after sleeping in a hard hotel bed. We managed to get a free hotel out of it. I'll spare you the rest of the gory details. Luckily we made it home safely.

Since we've been home, we've been hearing a cat meowing for the last 3 days. My kids reported that they had seen it on our roof while we were out of town. We searched and searched, my husband even went up on the roof and looked all over. We could hear a far away meow off and on and we'd search bushes around our yard....under the deck....no cat. Finally, yesterday I walked out on my front porch, heard a LOUD meow...looked up and a cat was peeking out at me from the small screened vent to my attic.

Yep....a cat was stuck in my attic. I immediately panicked, cuz it's been really hot here. I climbed up in my attic, where it was scorching hot, and the cat was scared and wouldn't come to me, he was stuck behind all the boxes. So I carried a bowl of water, and since I had no cat food, I tore a hot dog into tiny pieces and took it food and water. I coaxed the cat out by throwing the hot dog pieces. Finally, after I climbed down a ways, it ran over and ate and drank ravenously.

We listened to it meow all day, but it was too scared to come out. So I left the attic stairs lowered and left the garage doors up all day. I reached a local PAWS cat shelter and arranged to pick up a 'live trap' today. Finally, after we left it alone, it managed to climb down the ladder about 10 pm last night and exit the garage. HOORAY!

But what a crazy 5 days I've had....I feel like I've been on the show 'punked'....been looking over my shoulder for a few days for the cameras wondering where Ashton Kutcher is. :yup:

I just thought I'd check in with you, let you know I'm still sane....barely. And today, I'm off to an appointment with my Orthopedist Hand & Wrist specialist. If you could...I could use some positive thoughts and prayers for this one....I'm hoping he's not gonna say it's time to fuse my wrist. It's been causing me quite a bit of pain lately, and it's started to affect my elbow and shoulder as well.

Hope you all have a good day....pain free....or at least tolerable. :veryhappy:

I'll check in later after my doc visit.

Best wishes n Hugs to ALL... :hug:

Fondly,

:cool2: Lori

tiggerlishus - Heidi
05-28-2009, 07:53 AM
Hi lori

what a mad one you been having!!!! i'm sending as much postive thoughts and prays to you!! lots of love H xxx

rob
05-28-2009, 07:55 AM
Well,

Look who the cat dragged in! (Sorry, bad joke.) I'm sorry things went so bad, talk about one problem after another. Did your husband at least win the race? No hot water, a stowaway cat in your attic, bad enough. But the thing with your wrists, I really, really hope that you don't have to have the fuse done. You have all my positive thoughts, I'm not very good at prayer, but I'll say one anyway.

I'm glad the cat finally found it's way out of the attic. Too bad you couldn't get it to a shelter though, it sounds desperate. Hope someone get's ahold of it and finds it a home.

Good luck at the Orthopedist, let us know how it goes.

Rob

NoodleMom
05-28-2009, 10:49 AM
Wow!!
:cute:

mountaindreamer
05-28-2009, 02:03 PM
hey lori,

i have been wondering where you were the past few days...i was hoping you were just have an extended holiday and enjoying the spring time. So sorry about the issues at the race, and then the cat....i know you really worried yourself over this one.

Please let us know about the dr. appointment, i hope you get the answers that you want.

so very very very very glad you are back.

lucky7
05-28-2009, 02:14 PM
AWWWWW, Sorry it didnt go all that well LOri! :wacko: Oh man, i was thinking about you and i was hopeing you were having a fun time raceing! well, at least you found where the meowing was coming from!! Theres something thta was accomplished!! I hope it gets better for you Lori!!!!! Just rest and have dreams about a hunk of a man waiting on you hand and foot!!! I know you love your husband BUT its ok to have a little dream now and then!!!:cute:

Angel Oliver
05-28-2009, 03:29 PM
Hi Lori,

Flippin heck what a time you've had.Think you need another break now after all that.We've missed you!! I'll be sending those good vibes out to you and so hope the appointment is successful for you to ease the pain.So glad the cat finally escaped.....mmmmm hot dogs....good choice !! You get all the rest you need.You know where we are when you feel better.Tell us how Bruce got on...? Sending you love n lots of good thoughts
Amanda.xxxxxxxxxx

Rastagirl
05-28-2009, 06:03 PM
Hi Guys....

Thanks for all your kind thoughts....especially you, handcuff Boy! Very funny... :laugh2:

Well, it's been a long day and I'm totally worn out. The doctor was running an hour behind...so I went off for x-rays before the appointment...then waited in the exam room for a long long time. That's okay, I took a book and my music and headphones. I ended up sitting there for an hour texting my friend in Florida and she kept me company and made me laugh. I discovered texting is great for passing time in the doc office.

Well...the verdict is not what I wanted to hear....I need to have surgery and have my right wrist fused. The last time I saw this doctor was 2-1/2 years ago and my wrist has really deteriorated greatly since then. It's a pretty big mess and it's twisting my arm and causing my hand to deform. We need to stop it from continuing this route. Unfortunately, they don't have a good outcome with wrist replacement because of the compact area in a wrist and all the nerves and tendons that are in there, so fusing is the only option. He told me I actually need to have a 2-part surgery (which can both be done during the same surgery, thankfully). The first part fuses the wrist so it's straightened and the second part deals with the wrist bone, itself, which because of the collapsing, is sticking further and further out. What they have to do is trim off the large bone and clean and reform it, to relieve the impingement on the nerve. The main nerve going to your hand, goes down the side of your arm, crosses under the wrist bone and up and over to the top of your hand. Right now that's slowly getting pinched and causing most of my pain.

Anyway, I told the doctor that I LIVE for summer vacation and time off from my kids in school, so asked if I could wait until summer is over and do it in September. He said definitely, it's my choosing. He did say that I must have an incredibly high pain tolerance, because most patients that go through this, come in wanting the surgery much sooner than this. He was amazed that I actually still had an optimistic attitude and a smile on my face.

One cool thing about the pain management for the surgery he told me is that they do it with a complete shoulder block, so you're just numb from the shoulder down and then knocked out with groggy medicine (because I can't go under anesthesia), and then when they send you home, they have a small catheter inserted in a vein in your shoulder that carries a continuous block, so your entire arm is numb for about 3 days post-surgery. That way, you get thru the worst of the pain without feeling a thing. I really, really liked hearing that. I hate the pain control with oral pain meds after surgery. I will have to be in a cast afterwards, told him I want 'hot pink'. And I'm going to have to start learning how to do everything with my left hand. I told him that one of the biggest frustrations for me is that I've always had beautiful handwriting, and that's something that's disappearing. I'm having a hard time imagining ME without my handwriting. Does that sound silly?

So, that's the result of my appointment, in a nutshell. As I walked out, I felt the beginning of frustration....anger.....the 'this is so not fair' thoughts coming on, so I decided I was treating myself to an expensive lunch out. I was way past my lunch time and starving, so I went to a restaurant I've always wanted to try, overlooking a beautiful lake, sat on the terrace, ordered chips and guacamole, a glass of wine, and a hot crab sandwich, open face, with artichokes, grilled tomatoes and melted Tillamook cheddar cheese. I sat for an hour and a half, relaxing, sipping wine, stuffing myself, not caring about anything, except how beautiful the day was, and the fact that I am alive.

I still have many things to be thankful for....and an important one now...are all the friends I have made here...thank you so much for your love and support. It means the world to me. :heart:

With Love,

:cool2: Lori

mountaindreamer
05-28-2009, 06:13 PM
hello dear friend,

ooooh what a day you have had. I just can't begin to tell you how very sorry i am about your pending surgery. Hopefully, the surgery will be 100% successful, and you will regain beautiful handwriting.....maybe you will even graduate to calligraphy.

Thank goodness for the shoulder block....wonder why it has taken them so many years to find this one. My daughter has had both shoulder and hand surgery (due to athletic injuries), and they were both so painful, sounds like the pain blocker will be the secret.

OMG what an incredible lunch, wish i was there. I started to drool when you were talking about the hot crab sandwich with artichokes..... OOOOO here i go again, drool is running down my chin. you deserved this feast and then some....hope you had desert.

your family of the sky will not let you face this alone.

froggal
05-28-2009, 06:17 PM
Oh Lori!! I am glad that you took time for yourself and just reflected on the day. You are a strong lady with great faith. Your father in heaven is on your side, and so am I! I love you and my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hang in there girl and stay positive . . . like you always do! :yes: (I was beginning to wonder if we were going to have to send a search party out looking for you!)

abbasgirl
05-28-2009, 09:12 PM
You've been missed Lori!

So sorry you have to have the surgery. It sounds grueling!

I'm glad the day was turned around into a beautiful ending.

I love your posts. I feel like I'm there, you write it so well. I was cringing at the details of the surgeries and relaxing reading the details of your lunch time. Lol.

Angel Oliver
05-29-2009, 01:44 PM
Oh my dear Lori,

So glad you sat and ate and drank and just enjoyed the beautiful day and the view.Sometimes doing that can clear your mind,put things in to order in your mind.We'll all be there with you...and now to give you support and strength to get through the surgery...which you know will help in the long run.I know they'll be pain,but you'll have good medicine....and all of us.

Sending you Massive hugs
Love Amanda.xxxxxxxxxxx

Rastagirl
05-29-2009, 02:36 PM
hello dear friend,

ooooh what a day you have had. I just can't begin to tell you how very sorry i am about your pending surgery. Hopefully, the surgery will be 100% successful, and you will regain beautiful handwriting.....maybe you will even graduate to calligraphy.

Thank goodness for the shoulder block....wonder why it has taken them so many years to find this one. My daughter has had both shoulder and hand surgery (due to athletic injuries), and they were both so painful, sounds like the pain blocker will be the secret.

OMG what an incredible lunch, wish i was there. I started to drool when you were talking about the hot crab sandwich with artichokes..... OOOOO here i go again, drool is running down my chin. you deserved this feast and then some....hope you had desert.

your family of the sky will not let you face this alone.

Thanks Phyllis for your kind words....unfortunately, calligraphy is not in the picture for me. That's something I had to give up long ago. It was something that was very important to me...that I loved to use as a hobby to make gifts for friends and family, and the terrible arthritis over the years has made it impossible for me to keep a steady hand. The surgery is not going to correct that, or make it any better. When they fuse the wrist, I'll lose what little mobility I have left. The doctor suggested I start learning to write with my left....and somehow I can't picture that kind of writing ever becoming beautiful enough for calligraphy. Plus my left hand is headed in the same direction, so I won't put myself throught the agony of learning a skill, just to have it taken from me again in a few years.

Sure wish you would have been there with me sitting on the terrrace of that restaurant yesterday...I would have loved having someone to talk to, to share the experience and enjoy that food. I had to pass on dessert though....I was so stuffed I nearly had to crawl back to my car.

Thanks for your support.... :hug:

:cool2: Lori

Rastagirl
05-29-2009, 02:46 PM
Oh Lori!! I am glad that you took time for yourself and just reflected on the day. You are a strong lady with great faith. Your father in heaven is on your side, and so am I! I love you and my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hang in there girl and stay positive . . . like you always do! :yes: (I was beginning to wonder if we were going to have to send a search party out looking for you!)

Thank you, Angie...

I appreciate your kind words and support. I'm struggling hard to keep my positive attitude...just not feeling it today, though.

My feelings are running more towards anger....and loss. I'm feeling like Lupus has just taken so damn much from me....my hips, my voice, my airway, my self confidence, my strength and stamina, and now my hands.... When does it stop? Not anytime soon I'm guessing.

Lori

Rastagirl
05-29-2009, 02:52 PM
Thanks also to you Abbasgirl and Angel...

You brought tears to my eyes after reading your kind words. I'm truly glad I have a few people to encourage me along the way....otherwise the path can be terribly lonely.

It will be good to take care of this....just wish it didn't have to be the surgery route. That always scares the hell out of me. Don't like the idea of things being opened up and rearranged. I like the way God made me.

Hugs to you both.... :hug:

Lori

mountaindreamer
05-29-2009, 05:49 PM
hi lori,

i guess this is one of those occassions where humor just can't make things any better. We loose so much with lupus, and now to even loose your beautiful handwriting, it just is not fair. I am so very sorry that this has happened to you, and it is certainly understandable why a positive attitude would be impossible right now.

My heart is with you my friend.

Pearl
05-29-2009, 06:08 PM
Most people approach surgery with doubt, fear, anxiety (all understandable emotions, to be sure). You, my friend, approach it with wine, crab meat, a lake......not only am I now very hungry, but I am convinced I should apply your approach to pretty much every adversity I face. Like taking out the trash, for instance.....:)

Have a nice weekend.

Jana

Saysusie
05-30-2009, 09:54 AM
I know that I am late participating in this thread. I've been keeping up with it however. I am sorry that you are facing yet another challenge which has lead to the need for surgery. I thought that fusing would lead to decreased use and I am sorry that this is the only outcome. But, you have such a positive attitude and such determination, I bet that you will surprise us all post-op:cute:
I am so proud of you for taking an afternoon to treat yourself. Your lunch by the lake sounded so wonderful, I almost felt as if I were there. I totally agree with Pearl, you should give in-service lessons to us all about how to approach adversity!!

I hope that you are able to have an enjoyable summer, most of all, I am wishing you the best for your surgery and for you outcome! Take very good care of yourself!

Peace and Blessings
Namaste
Saysusie

Angel Oliver
05-30-2009, 01:36 PM
Thinking of you today Lori and hope you feel a bit better today.I know its scary....but i think god sometimes makes us with bits not right......its now up to the surgeons to put you right ......hopefully then....less pain....and then you'll feel good.My brother was born with dislocated hips.He had so many surgeries as a baby then had to wear splints for years.Now....he's fine.So you...with your wrist....it can be fixed...i know you'd rather not and wish it was ok anyway.....but it will be.

Lots of love n gentle hugs..have a good weekend if you can my friend.
Amanda.xxxxxxxxxxxx

lucky7
06-01-2009, 01:36 PM
AWWWWWW Lori!!! Im so sorry sweetie!!!!! Gosh, what an ordeal for you!!!:no: At least you can enjoy your summer though!:yes: The nurses who get to be by your bedside are LUCKY!!! They will get a GOOD DOSE of our SWEET LORI to take care of!!! They will be blessed with your presence!!!! Youre always in my heart and my thoughts!!!!! XXXXXXXXX