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06-21-2012, 02:09 AM
to be 22 and 87 at the same time is something I'm still trying to cope with
When everyones out, I'm on my couch
my head wants to be there so badly, my body just says no.
having to say "I can't, i have work tomorrow" ughh. the me before i got really sick would totally be there and it makes me feel extremely trapped.
I'm pretty tough and i can deal with the pills, the pains, the exhaustion, the pricking, the prying, and the random swelling - but losing myself?

06-21-2012, 11:35 PM
Ooh, Im so sorry that you are dealing with this so young, Im 31 and can relate to the anger of your body betraying you when your mind is still so young. All I can say is that its a process and learning to balance and prioritize what you really want to do, (and face the miserable aftermath) with the things that you have to pass on. The Spoon Theory put lots of things into perspective for me in ways that I wasnt able to put into words. Be patient and easy on yourself and hopefully things will get better.....dont waste valuable energy being upset, instead focus on positive things in life! I know thats easier said than done :)